wenn man ihren persönlichen Hintergrund als Transfrau als Tochter eines Südstaaten-Priesters noch dazu kennt, macht es den Songtext noch besonderer, auch wenn ich es eigentlich nicht mag, wenn man das bei Sängern mit Transhintergrund dazu erwähnt, weil sie oft nur darauf reduziert werden. Aber in dem Fall passt da alles zusammen.
----------- the harder we fight the higher the wall
14.07.23 02:15
#142 ach du sch...e, was fürn Song und Text
Hier mal ein passender Kommentar zum Song.
Besides the obvious macabre theme of being cannibalized by your murderous lover, there's something very tragic in this song, in that it's... rather romantic? To me, it reads that Ethel (the character) is reflecting on her life, wondering if she ever lived up to anything, or if she just ended up disappointing everyone in her life. "I tried to be good, am I no good?" So she acquiesces, if she can't be good in the moral sense, then hopefully as her body is consumed, she will at least taste good. She constantly calls her murderer handsome, and begs to be his, because even as she leaves the material world behind, and her material remains are consumed, she still seeks some belonging, some validation. At least in being eaten, she is now a part of him. She even shows concern for him, asking "Do I make you feel sick?" and forgives him for his deed, "I never blamed you for loving me the way that you did." It just reads as a hurt soul, whose self image was so damaged, and whose life was filled with so much regret and shame, that in the act of being consumed, she looks for a semblance of what she always wanted--acceptance, belonging, acknowledgement that she is good--in her murderer and even tries to comfort him as he reflects on what he has done to her. She was so badly hurt in her life, that she is still in love with this man for the attention and desire he shows her, even if that culminated into her death and consumption. It's poetically tragic.
----------- the harder we fight the higher the wall
